jordan holland

i wish you would just talk to me.

Me and matty went and say wall-e :D so awesome. Today was definitely a good day!

I wish I could have a pet robot or something cool.

hey alls.
nothing much lately. i miss my randy!! me and matty spend a lot of time together.

ps humpfree is def real.

Today is pretty much the best day of my entire life. Nothing could have been better. :)



My hubby Mr. Matt Rouge-Holland :)

and you cant fight the tears that aint coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

and i dont want the world to see me
cause i dont think that theyd understand
when everythings made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.

excuse me while i go finish what i fucking started over a week ago.
whats the point anymore?

( jkhjsdh )

today at approximately 9:30 pm Jordan holland attempted suicide by means of jumping off the top of the hospital. The boy suffers several broken bones and ribs, and severe head trauma. We are all hoping for the best but at the current time he remains in a coma and will be in the infirmary until further notice.

( :'( )

ive never met anybody as heartless and cruel as you. never. i am SO stupid for thinking that you had ever loved me and i will never ever believe that you ever did. nothing i have ever done or said to you will never amount to what youve now done to me. ill always love you, but im sorry for believing you loved me back.

please stop thinking i dont mean it. cause i really really do. every time i say it i mean it. please dont feel stupid :(

i have an amazing boyfriend, who never ceases in cheering me up.








to you:
im so sorry. it still wasnt worth it.

it wasnt worth it.

havent done much lately, seen randy a couple times but theres not even anything to talk about :( i need friends, haha. talk to meee :)

im going home for a little while. i dont know if i will come back, but we'll see.

england was perfect and amazing and i missed home so much. now i wanna go back :(

i always thought that if there were one thing in the world that i ever had to believe in, it was love. even when i was younger, and things werent so good for me, i still knew that there would always be something better - a light at the end of the tunnel of sorts. just like everyone else here, ive been through my own share of ups and downs in my past - whether it was just a week ago or several years. but i alway sknew that love was something magical - something worth living for. i still believe it is. but its kind of hard when things just dont go so well for me. its hard to believe in something that for awhile now constantly tears me apart. you wonder just what about love is so wonderful. i sit and try to make the good things outweigh the bad, and even when it feels like the bad is just SO bad.. the good still is so much better, it makes it all worth it. you're worth it.

in response to my amazing boyfriend's post.

"IT" was amazing. he is amazing. and i love him.
what more can i ask for? :]

( for my kevin :] )

so its been kind of good lately. well really good. still with my kevin :] we got engaged but then he said he wasnt ready for that so we're waiting, but we're still together. hes so perfect. i love him so much and god.. hes just aamazing. more amazing than anything in the world. end sappinesss :]

i think i can say with certainty that im entirely happy. i have the best boyfriend in the world. nobody can compare with my little eskimo :] and im his polar bear. i love it. i think you should all be jealous :p i love you kevin :]