jordan holland

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 01:55:23 GMT

i wish you would just talk to me.

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 16:11:39 GMT

Me and matty went and say wall-e :D so awesome. Today was definitely a good day!

I wish I could have a pet robot or something cool.

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:25:47 GMT

hey alls.
nothing much lately. i miss my randy!! me and matty spend a lot of time together.

ps humpfree is def real.

Fri, 30 May 2008 06:33:38 GMT

Today is pretty much the best day of my entire life. Nothing could have been better. :)

My hubby Mr. Matt Rouge-Holland :)

Mon, 26 May 2008 18:56:20 GMT

and you cant fight the tears that aint coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

and i dont want the world to see me
cause i dont think that theyd understand
when everythings made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.

Tue, 20 May 2008 21:56:59 GMT

excuse me while i go finish what i fucking started over a week ago.
whats the point anymore?

maybe someday you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

Mon, 12 May 2008 01:32:41 GMT

today at approximately 9:30 pm Jordan holland attempted suicide by means of jumping off the top of the hospital. The boy suffers several broken bones and ribs, and severe head trauma. We are all hoping for the best but at the current time he remains in a coma and will be in the infirmary until further notice.

im sorry i was never good enough.

Mon, 12 May 2008 00:09:47 GMT

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you
(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

Sun, 11 May 2008 23:48:12 GMT

ive never met anybody as heartless and cruel as you. never. i am SO stupid for thinking that you had ever loved me and i will never ever believe that you ever did. nothing i have ever done or said to you will never amount to what youve now done to me. ill always love you, but im sorry for believing you loved me back.

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 08:09:49 GMT

please stop thinking i dont mean it. cause i really really do. every time i say it i mean it. please dont feel stupid :(

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 00:47:58 GMT

i have an amazing boyfriend, who never ceases in cheering me up.

to you:
im so sorry. it still wasnt worth it.

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 22:44:48 GMT

it wasnt worth it.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 20:48:19 GMT

havent done much lately, seen randy a couple times but theres not even anything to talk about :( i need friends, haha. talk to meee :)

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 02:08:48 GMT

im going home for a little while. i dont know if i will come back, but we'll see.

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 03:45:35 GMT

england was perfect and amazing and i missed home so much. now i wanna go back :(

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 18:03:59 GMT

i always thought that if there were one thing in the world that i ever had to believe in, it was love. even when i was younger, and things werent so good for me, i still knew that there would always be something better - a light at the end of the tunnel of sorts. just like everyone else here, ive been through my own share of ups and downs in my past - whether it was just a week ago or several years. but i alway sknew that love was something magical - something worth living for. i still believe it is. but its kind of hard when things just dont go so well for me. its hard to believe in something that for awhile now constantly tears me apart. you wonder just what about love is so wonderful. i sit and try to make the good things outweigh the bad, and even when it feels like the bad is just SO bad.. the good still is so much better, it makes it all worth it. you're worth it.

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 02:37:22 GMT

in response to my amazing boyfriend's post.

"IT" was amazing. he is amazing. and i love him.
what more can i ask for? :]

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 21:09:45 GMT

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said

I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

The greatest fan of your life.
...greatest fan of your life.

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 05:39:35 GMT

so its been kind of good lately. well really good. still with my kevin :] we got engaged but then he said he wasnt ready for that so we're waiting, but we're still together. hes so perfect. i love him so much and god.. hes just aamazing. more amazing than anything in the world. end sappinesss :]

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 04:46:15 GMT

i think i can say with certainty that im entirely happy. i have the best boyfriend in the world. nobody can compare with my little eskimo :] and im his polar bear. i love it. i think you should all be jealous :p i love you kevin :]

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 07:25:45 GMT

so over in the uk we dont really do thanksgiving but seems like a good time haha. hope everyone had a good one.

things with randy arent that great. but things with him have always always been like up and down and boo. anyways.

i met this amazing boy named kevin, and he is a giant sweetie. hes my little eskimo and im his polar bear. he gives good, cute little eskimo kisses, he makes me smile a whole lot. we arent official but its alright, hes my little sweetie anyway and who cares about titles? :]

thats all for nooww~

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 05:30:27 GMT

i dont think ive missed you more than i do at this moment. :[

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 09:11:27 GMT

yyouu guys im so bored with life, come entertain me, i dont bite :[[

~~i miss you.~~

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 19:42:34 GMT

so much for love right?

OOC

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 22:40:05 GMT

hey guysss. so you may or may not have heard about the fires down in southern california and stuff, but im in san diego and so i dont know how much i will be on. we evacuated our house yesterday so it may be a few days until i can be around more/update and such because of my limited internet access. i do have a sidekick but im trying not to use it as much because of too much wireless use around teh area so.. yeah. we lost our house in the fires 4 years ago so we're really hoping we can return to a house this time!! keep san diego/southern california in your thougts and prayers!! love you all

-jess/jordan and ryan-s

if you wanna reach me ill be on my ooc sn captainjackfm :]